Monday, January 31, 2011
new york tomorrow
Unless it starts hailing and supposedly freezing raining all night going on to tomorrow noon. My bus time is 1:40. Helping an acquaintance tomorrow at the salon. She's going to cut my hair.. scared kind of but I've been needing a trim for months now. I babysat three ...really obnoxious kids today. I really hope I find an office job soon..I have to pack now before I pass out. LET ME GO TOMORROW.
i think..
I'm going to new york tomorrow. I should arrive by 5 30 ish. Hopefully everything pans out and I don't end up being stranded or lost somewhere. It's a bus stop I've never been to before. I also had my babysitting interview this morning..which I was late to.. I woke up late thinking the interview was at 9:30 and not 9:15.. so I had waiting for a bit. But she seemed to like me enough.? She wants me to come to her house today at 5 to meet the kids. I have a few things I need to do before I sleep tonight.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
bad dreams.
i ended up leaving the library in a haste last night and went out to go eat sushi with my friend Chris. He took me to a really great place in Baltimore. We tried to go to RA but the wait ended up being an hour and a half. It was fun, I guess. I don't know. These kind of one on one outings are always at least a little awkward for me. Especially when it's with a guy acquaintance that I don't know very well. It has a date kind of vibe. Euw..
But nonetheless, the food was so fucking worth it. I was craving sushi for weeks now and this place was worth waiting the whole day for. It was so expensive though. I felt bad since Chris was treating. Which made it feel like a date even more so.. euw..
I hate dates.
Afterward, Chris dropped me off and Sonam and her friend came to pick me up for a "party". It ended up being a small gathering of friends for this kid's birthday. A bunch of potheads smoking god knows how many grams of some really stinky bud. I had two beer and I didn't even feel like drinking. I got home around 1:30 ish? Jenny wasn't sleeping yet, we watched Adventure Time<3 and we fell asleep. She's actually skiing right now, with her friends. Lucky girl.. I STILL haven't gone snowboarding. I don't know how Jenny functions and wakes up at 6 am to go skiing after getting less than three hours of sleep. I can't do it.
So Monday, I drank with my friend. Had honey pig spontaneously. um, Tuesday I didn't do much. Applied to jobs mostly OH! and I had my Aflac interview at 5. It's a commission based salary job. FUCK that... I'm not good at sales.. I'm probably the least convincing person I know. The interview or company outlook meeting went well but it just wasn't what I expected it to be. So, no to Aflac. Jamie ended up taking me to the interview. Oh yeah, I forgot about the fight I had with my mom last night. My mom's such a fucking psycho. I came into her room asking for a lint remover or asking if she's seen it and she was in the bath tub. She calls me in and without a second to lose, she BLOWS off on me. "BITCH WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO START PAYING THE FUCKING BILLS AROUND HERE?! YOU JUST FUCKING EAT AND SLEEP LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING..." it goes on for a while.. but that's the general gist of what she was saying. She was also saying I've been sitting on my ass not doing anything. What frustrates me the most is, she's not willing to drive me around and help me look for a job but she just expects me to find one somehow without going around to apply first..
She doesn't make any god damn fucking sense. She was asking me why I don't have a job yet and why I can't get hired anywhere. I told her I've been endlessly applying and she literally replied with "No, you haven't." I was so fucking irritated at this point. I was like "HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW?! YOU NEVER WANT TO HELP ME APPLY ANYWHERE YOU JUST SCREAM AT ME ABOUT HOW I DON'T HAVE A JOB." I fucking lost it. She was driving me fucking insane. She was telling me to get out of the house since I haven't gotten a job yet and how I just sit on my ass all day and how it's my fault for not having a job at this point. HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GET AROUND AND KEEP A JOB WITHOUT A CAR?! Crazy bitch.. god damn. I'm out finding rides to go apply to all these places. Asking rides from practically strangers all the fucking time because she's not willing to drive me anywhere and.. sigh, I'm done.
Bottom line: I need a fucking job before my mom has me strangling her.
Wednesday.. Oh yes, I saw Sean for the first time in a really long time. We first got Chipotle <3 and then Sean wasn't needed at work anymore so we were trying to figure out what we wanted to. So we decided to watch a movie. Realized the tickets were much more expensive in Columbia than they were in Downtown Silver Spring, so headed over there. Little did we know, "Thundersnow" was scheduled for later that day. We watched True Grit which was mmmmf<3<3. That's how I would describe it. It was so good. I literally felt refreshed when I walked out of the theater. As me and Sean were coming down the escalator, Thundersnow was coming into our vision. We both looked at each other and said "What. The. Fuck." The roads looked terrible already at this point. It was only about to be 6. We ended up being stuck on the road for five to six hours. We couldn't even reach my house in Columbia, I ended up staying at Sean's house. His power was out. I met his brothers. They were nice. We woke up early the next morning because Sean had work. So he dropped me off around 8 am, I borrowed a whole bunch of books and three movies. Oh, and we had mcdonalds breakfast.. heh.
Thursday..I also saw a face I hadn't seen in a while. A middle school friend named Sonam. We.. Oh yes, we went to get georgetown cupcakes for her and her boyfriend's anniversary Friday. Afterward, we went over her house, she found out she had her power back.. her dog almost bit me but I didn't mind. I love big dogs. Some interesting things happened with her and her parents. She dropped me off then I met up with Pyung, had chipotle again. Went over to his place. Did shot for shot, beat him. Passed out. Hung around his place Friday until late. I was so bored. He had to leave me at his place with strangers while he picked up furniture with Ricky for the living room. I felt so grungy since I hadn't brushed my teeth or took a shower. I met both his room mates. They were chill, funny... interesting I guess. Um. I got home. Fell asleep? Saturday, was yesterday.. yeah. Whew.. that was a lot.
Left out some stuff but. I think I'll be ok. hahah
Earlier I thought this dude I knew from way back in the day was fucking with me. Irked me a bit. I really wish he would say something, I have a few fucking things to say to him myself, shit.
Jack time.
But nonetheless, the food was so fucking worth it. I was craving sushi for weeks now and this place was worth waiting the whole day for. It was so expensive though. I felt bad since Chris was treating. Which made it feel like a date even more so.. euw..
I hate dates.
Afterward, Chris dropped me off and Sonam and her friend came to pick me up for a "party". It ended up being a small gathering of friends for this kid's birthday. A bunch of potheads smoking god knows how many grams of some really stinky bud. I had two beer and I didn't even feel like drinking. I got home around 1:30 ish? Jenny wasn't sleeping yet, we watched Adventure Time<3 and we fell asleep. She's actually skiing right now, with her friends. Lucky girl.. I STILL haven't gone snowboarding. I don't know how Jenny functions and wakes up at 6 am to go skiing after getting less than three hours of sleep. I can't do it.
So Monday, I drank with my friend. Had honey pig spontaneously. um, Tuesday I didn't do much. Applied to jobs mostly OH! and I had my Aflac interview at 5. It's a commission based salary job. FUCK that... I'm not good at sales.. I'm probably the least convincing person I know. The interview or company outlook meeting went well but it just wasn't what I expected it to be. So, no to Aflac. Jamie ended up taking me to the interview. Oh yeah, I forgot about the fight I had with my mom last night. My mom's such a fucking psycho. I came into her room asking for a lint remover or asking if she's seen it and she was in the bath tub. She calls me in and without a second to lose, she BLOWS off on me. "BITCH WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO START PAYING THE FUCKING BILLS AROUND HERE?! YOU JUST FUCKING EAT AND SLEEP LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING..." it goes on for a while.. but that's the general gist of what she was saying. She was also saying I've been sitting on my ass not doing anything. What frustrates me the most is, she's not willing to drive me around and help me look for a job but she just expects me to find one somehow without going around to apply first..
She doesn't make any god damn fucking sense. She was asking me why I don't have a job yet and why I can't get hired anywhere. I told her I've been endlessly applying and she literally replied with "No, you haven't." I was so fucking irritated at this point. I was like "HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW?! YOU NEVER WANT TO HELP ME APPLY ANYWHERE YOU JUST SCREAM AT ME ABOUT HOW I DON'T HAVE A JOB." I fucking lost it. She was driving me fucking insane. She was telling me to get out of the house since I haven't gotten a job yet and how I just sit on my ass all day and how it's my fault for not having a job at this point. HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GET AROUND AND KEEP A JOB WITHOUT A CAR?! Crazy bitch.. god damn. I'm out finding rides to go apply to all these places. Asking rides from practically strangers all the fucking time because she's not willing to drive me anywhere and.. sigh, I'm done.
Bottom line: I need a fucking job before my mom has me strangling her.
Wednesday.. Oh yes, I saw Sean for the first time in a really long time. We first got Chipotle <3 and then Sean wasn't needed at work anymore so we were trying to figure out what we wanted to. So we decided to watch a movie. Realized the tickets were much more expensive in Columbia than they were in Downtown Silver Spring, so headed over there. Little did we know, "Thundersnow" was scheduled for later that day. We watched True Grit which was mmmmf<3<3. That's how I would describe it. It was so good. I literally felt refreshed when I walked out of the theater. As me and Sean were coming down the escalator, Thundersnow was coming into our vision. We both looked at each other and said "What. The. Fuck." The roads looked terrible already at this point. It was only about to be 6. We ended up being stuck on the road for five to six hours. We couldn't even reach my house in Columbia, I ended up staying at Sean's house. His power was out. I met his brothers. They were nice. We woke up early the next morning because Sean had work. So he dropped me off around 8 am, I borrowed a whole bunch of books and three movies. Oh, and we had mcdonalds breakfast.. heh.
Thursday..I also saw a face I hadn't seen in a while. A middle school friend named Sonam. We.. Oh yes, we went to get georgetown cupcakes for her and her boyfriend's anniversary Friday. Afterward, we went over her house, she found out she had her power back.. her dog almost bit me but I didn't mind. I love big dogs. Some interesting things happened with her and her parents. She dropped me off then I met up with Pyung, had chipotle again. Went over to his place. Did shot for shot, beat him. Passed out. Hung around his place Friday until late. I was so bored. He had to leave me at his place with strangers while he picked up furniture with Ricky for the living room. I felt so grungy since I hadn't brushed my teeth or took a shower. I met both his room mates. They were chill, funny... interesting I guess. Um. I got home. Fell asleep? Saturday, was yesterday.. yeah. Whew.. that was a lot.
Left out some stuff but. I think I'll be ok. hahah
Earlier I thought this dude I knew from way back in the day was fucking with me. Irked me a bit. I really wish he would say something, I have a few fucking things to say to him myself, shit.
Jack time.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
@the library with jenny.
I know I haven't written in so long. I have been slightly busy being social. Surprisingly enough, the more time I spend being surrounded by strangers and people in general, I feel that I'm finding myself again. Remembering that I'm happier alone. Feeling unhappy and wishing I could just go home and sit with my dogs. On Monday, I believe I got a phone call from a close friend that I haven't heard from in a while. I found out he's been having it really terribly. He was in jail for the past four days so he couldn't respond to my texts/phone calls. I ended up drinking with a few friends and him, drinking then randomly going to Honey Pig for some drunken feasting. It was great. I hadn't had meat in a such a long time. Unfortunately, me and Steve ended up being the only people with cash so.. we were the only ones eating out of the nine of us. The lady serving us wasn't pleased and she actually charged us for each rice bowl that everyone had originally gotten. It was still a good night in my opinion.
Oh, the library seems to be closing in 30 minutes. I'll write later. I have a lot to tell you.
Oh, the library seems to be closing in 30 minutes. I'll write later. I have a lot to tell you.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
day with dad.
the game is on right now.
ill write later.
....yeah, pointless to write this now but.. eh.
EDITED
i decided i didnt want to continue watching the stupid jets steelers game. just hearing "SANCHEZ...." is irritating me.
so dad and jenny day, we ate at tgi friday's and watched gulliver's travels. the movie was ..wild. the audience was mainly filled with kids below the age of 5. . .the dialogue.......narration or whatever was.. definitely for a much older audience.
example: ".. if you want to get the girls to go skeet skeet skeet..."
yeah, it was still pretty amusing i guess. not a huge fan of jack black..
i hate it when he gives us money right when we reach home. $50 is a lot of money. on top of all the money he spends throughout the day (food was 60 something bucks, movies 30 something..) and he gives me and my sister $50 each. makes me sad.
i finally asked him about where he's been staying and he's living in someone basement. and he said he goes to work all the time and just sleeps so he doesn't mind the small living space. just like how it was before we moved here with mom, i'd only see him for a little bit before he'd fall asleep right he'd get home around 4 or 5 am. then he'd drive jenny to school and go straight to work. three hours of sleep every night. it made me so sad that things are still like that for him. i'm sure it's still really hard trying to make rent and he gives us all this money.
what else..i rescheduled my driving test to february 12th because that's the only time jamie is available to help me. it's a bit far away from now but that just means more practice time naturally. hm, yeah.
more later i guess.
ill write later.
....yeah, pointless to write this now but.. eh.
EDITED
i decided i didnt want to continue watching the stupid jets steelers game. just hearing "SANCHEZ...." is irritating me.
so dad and jenny day, we ate at tgi friday's and watched gulliver's travels. the movie was ..wild. the audience was mainly filled with kids below the age of 5. . .the dialogue.......narration or whatever was.. definitely for a much older audience.
example: ".. if you want to get the girls to go skeet skeet skeet..."
yeah, it was still pretty amusing i guess. not a huge fan of jack black..
i hate it when he gives us money right when we reach home. $50 is a lot of money. on top of all the money he spends throughout the day (food was 60 something bucks, movies 30 something..) and he gives me and my sister $50 each. makes me sad.
i finally asked him about where he's been staying and he's living in someone basement. and he said he goes to work all the time and just sleeps so he doesn't mind the small living space. just like how it was before we moved here with mom, i'd only see him for a little bit before he'd fall asleep right he'd get home around 4 or 5 am. then he'd drive jenny to school and go straight to work. three hours of sleep every night. it made me so sad that things are still like that for him. i'm sure it's still really hard trying to make rent and he gives us all this money.
what else..i rescheduled my driving test to february 12th because that's the only time jamie is available to help me. it's a bit far away from now but that just means more practice time naturally. hm, yeah.
more later i guess.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
instead of going to the club...
i WOULD fall asleep after eating and wake up at 1 am, hungry.
now to be a fatass and eat ramen and watch the office until i fall into yet another food coma.
yes.
EDITED
i think i'm pretty happy right now. sleep schedule is fucked up again but.. mmm, younha's voice is so pretty. sweet and light. maybe ill drink some coffee.
not having mom at home is nice. without much responsibility.
got to go take the dogs out in a second, have a cigarette.
do the dishes.
(:
younha -기다리다 (Acoustic Ver.)
current favorite by younha
now to be a fatass and eat ramen and watch the office until i fall into yet another food coma.
yes.
EDITED
i think i'm pretty happy right now. sleep schedule is fucked up again but.. mmm, younha's voice is so pretty. sweet and light. maybe ill drink some coffee.
not having mom at home is nice. without much responsibility.
got to go take the dogs out in a second, have a cigarette.
do the dishes.
(:
younha -기다리다 (Acoustic Ver.)
current favorite by younha
lots of upates.
slept over jamie's with jessica. watched this ..really fucked up anime called Gantz. that shit..
ate buffalo wild wings for the first time, very spicy and resulted in a really painful morning.
went to the mva to get another copy of my permit and take my driving test.
the lady at the desk was a bitch (go figure) and we (me and jamie) were missing his car insurance information and they said that my first driving test that was held in glen burnie is missing from my record so I'm going to have to grab my driver's ed certificate from years ago and have them scan it at my next attempt to take my driving test.
i got home not too long ago. oh! and i also took the personality test again, i am still an INFJ. reading about my personality type always puts me in this really strange mood.
there is a party tonight, hesitant on going because i'm so tired from the lack of sleep last night and hungry. i'm sure i'm going to need to be picked up somewhat soon since the host of the party is coming to scoop me up but.. feeling so lazy.... i still need to shower and get dressed for a special, PLANNED, music video kegger party.
.... =/
i also had my interview at ranstad. it went fine to my knowledge. hopefully they'll find me a job quicker than i'm anticipating them to. what else..
not much other then.. jamie and his girlfriend. theyre.. cute together, i think?
im not a fan of how jamie "gets" when he's playing video games. (easily irritated, snappy, immature)
to go or not to go out. to eat or not to eat before i drink. to over-analyze or not over-analyze my myers briggs results.
i know what i like. i know what i love. i know what i dont like. i know what i hate.
yet i am still incredibly indecisive.
ate buffalo wild wings for the first time, very spicy and resulted in a really painful morning.
went to the mva to get another copy of my permit and take my driving test.
the lady at the desk was a bitch (go figure) and we (me and jamie) were missing his car insurance information and they said that my first driving test that was held in glen burnie is missing from my record so I'm going to have to grab my driver's ed certificate from years ago and have them scan it at my next attempt to take my driving test.
i got home not too long ago. oh! and i also took the personality test again, i am still an INFJ. reading about my personality type always puts me in this really strange mood.
there is a party tonight, hesitant on going because i'm so tired from the lack of sleep last night and hungry. i'm sure i'm going to need to be picked up somewhat soon since the host of the party is coming to scoop me up but.. feeling so lazy.... i still need to shower and get dressed for a special, PLANNED, music video kegger party.
.... =/
i also had my interview at ranstad. it went fine to my knowledge. hopefully they'll find me a job quicker than i'm anticipating them to. what else..
not much other then.. jamie and his girlfriend. theyre.. cute together, i think?
im not a fan of how jamie "gets" when he's playing video games. (easily irritated, snappy, immature)
to go or not to go out. to eat or not to eat before i drink. to over-analyze or not over-analyze my myers briggs results.
i know what i like. i know what i love. i know what i dont like. i know what i hate.
yet i am still incredibly indecisive.
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