bad dreams.

i ended up leaving the library in a haste last night and went out to go eat sushi with my friend Chris. He took me to a really great place in Baltimore. We tried to go to RA but the wait ended up being an hour and a half. It was fun, I guess. I don't know. These kind of one on one outings are always at least a little awkward for me. Especially when it's with a guy acquaintance that I don't know very well. It has a date kind of vibe. Euw..
But nonetheless, the food was so fucking worth it. I was craving sushi for weeks now and this place was worth waiting the whole day for. It was so expensive though. I felt bad since Chris was treating. Which made it feel like a date even more so.. euw..
I hate dates.
Afterward, Chris dropped me off and Sonam and her friend came to pick me up for a "party". It ended up being a small gathering of friends for this kid's birthday. A bunch of potheads smoking god knows how many grams of some really stinky bud. I had two beer and I didn't even feel like drinking. I got home around 1:30 ish? Jenny wasn't sleeping yet, we watched Adventure Time<3  and we fell asleep. She's actually skiing right now, with her friends. Lucky girl.. I STILL haven't gone snowboarding. I don't know how Jenny functions and wakes up at 6 am to go skiing after getting less than three hours of sleep. I can't do it.
So Monday, I drank with my friend. Had honey pig spontaneously. um, Tuesday I didn't do much. Applied to jobs mostly OH! and I had my Aflac interview at 5. It's a commission based salary job. FUCK that... I'm not good at sales.. I'm probably the least convincing person I know. The interview or company outlook meeting went well but it just wasn't what I expected it to be. So, no to Aflac. Jamie ended up taking me to the interview.  Oh yeah, I forgot about the fight I had with my mom last night. My mom's such a fucking psycho. I came into her room asking for a lint remover or asking if she's seen it and she was in the bath tub. She calls me in and without a second to lose, she BLOWS off on me. "BITCH WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO START PAYING THE FUCKING BILLS AROUND HERE?! YOU JUST FUCKING EAT AND SLEEP LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING..." it goes on for a while.. but that's the general gist of what she was saying. She was also saying I've been sitting on my ass not doing anything. What frustrates me the most is, she's not willing to drive me around and help me look for a job but she just expects me to find one somehow without going around to apply first..
She doesn't make any god damn fucking sense. She was asking me why I don't have a job yet and why I can't get hired anywhere. I told her I've been endlessly applying and she literally replied with "No, you haven't." I was so fucking irritated at this point. I was like "HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW?! YOU NEVER WANT TO HELP ME APPLY ANYWHERE YOU JUST SCREAM AT ME ABOUT HOW I DON'T HAVE A JOB." I fucking lost it. She was driving me fucking insane. She was telling me to get out of the house since I haven't gotten a job yet and how I just sit on my ass all day and how it's my fault for not having a job at this point. HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO GET AROUND AND KEEP A JOB WITHOUT A CAR?! Crazy bitch.. god damn. I'm out finding rides to go apply to all these places. Asking rides from practically strangers all the fucking time because she's not willing to drive me anywhere and.. sigh, I'm done.
Bottom line: I need a fucking job before my mom has me strangling her.
Wednesday.. Oh yes, I saw Sean for the first time in a really long time. We first got Chipotle <3 and then Sean wasn't needed at work anymore so we were trying to figure out what we wanted to. So we decided to watch a movie. Realized the tickets were much more expensive in Columbia than they were in Downtown Silver Spring, so headed over there. Little did we know, "Thundersnow" was scheduled for later that day. We watched True Grit which was mmmmf<3<3. That's how I would describe it. It was so good. I literally felt refreshed when I walked out of the theater. As me and Sean were coming down the escalator, Thundersnow was coming into our vision. We both looked at each other and said "What. The. Fuck." The roads looked terrible already at this point. It was only about to be 6. We ended up being stuck on the road for five to six hours. We couldn't even reach my house in Columbia, I ended up staying at Sean's house. His power was out. I met his brothers. They were nice. We woke up early the next morning because Sean had work. So he dropped me off around 8 am, I borrowed a whole bunch of books and three movies. Oh, and we had mcdonalds breakfast.. heh.
Thursday..I also saw a face I hadn't seen in a while. A middle school friend named Sonam. We.. Oh yes, we went to get georgetown cupcakes for her and her boyfriend's anniversary Friday. Afterward, we went over her house, she found out she had her power back.. her dog almost bit me but I didn't mind. I love big dogs. Some interesting things happened with her and her parents. She dropped me off then I met up with Pyung, had chipotle again. Went over to his place. Did shot for shot, beat him. Passed out. Hung around his place Friday until late. I was so bored. He had to leave me at his place with strangers while he picked up furniture with Ricky for the living room. I felt so grungy since I hadn't brushed my teeth or took a shower. I met both his room mates. They were chill, funny... interesting I guess. Um. I got home. Fell asleep? Saturday, was yesterday.. yeah. Whew.. that was a lot.
Left out some stuff but. I think I'll be ok. hahah
Earlier I thought this dude I knew from way back in the day was fucking with me. Irked me a bit. I really wish he would say something, I have a few fucking things to say to him myself, shit.
Jack time.